Have you ever thought what thoughts do to us..well not just thoughts - "Negative thoughts... mean Negative ones"

Think about it?

It was raining last night, and as usual it being a saturday night, I waiting for my husband to come back home. It was getting late and pouring cats n dogs.

I was worried since he had to ride his bike back home. I was unawa re that it had been raining and thoughts just creeped into my head as to why he was not home as yet.

One thought - he was busy with work. I kept thinking and at the same time busy preparing food, getting his clothes ready. Then the second thought - He did not want to be back home... Third thought -  I said something.

Thoughts ran all over the place then.....I thought rain, i thought thunder, then lightning not one thought crept of something good - anything..nope nothing at all.. "Why?" was the only question on my mind.

Finally, when he messaged he would be home late as it was raining, that irate me further...I did not see reason. He knew my silence meant a lot as I slipped further in my thoughts.

He came home all drenched - What kind of wife was I? A wicked wife, I prooved to be. I thought.... was I not happy to see him? I was, thats when seeing him drenched i snapped back into reality - it had been raining and he drove all the way back home 20Kms, just to see me smile.

What did i do? I thought...and my mind played games with a long face still looking unhappy unwelcoming my tired husband. Could i be so selfish?

I cleared my thoughts and pulled a smile trying my best to make him happy as well. He looked worried and tired. He did not say a word and hugged me. Tears rolled down my cheek without realizing...Ah yes! Me and my negative thoughts...see where took me not a wonderful ride on such a beatiful day but "on wild goose chase" and what did i get - huh? A drenched and worried husband.

I tortured not just my self but him as well with all my negativity. I learnt my lesson...I did not sleep the night, my mind so unrestful, some how i could not forgive myself.

I was angry not at him for anything but with myself because of my negative thoughts.